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When you look at me,

there are many things that you don’t see…

You don’t see the millions of tears I have shed,

or the way my heart breaks each time my pain prevents me from

doing all the things that most take for granted.

You don’t see the many times I have had to cancel on my friends,

or eat my meals in bed.

When you see me smile,

you don’t see the intense pain that flows through my body,

every minute of every day –

the copious handfuls of pills I have taken,

or the way my pain breaks my Mom’s heart.

You don’t see the helplessness my Dad feels, or

the sad resignation my son has so maturely made

on days that I just can’t play with him the way he’d like me to….

You don’t see the midnight tears, and how my love wipes them away –

he hides his anger well… never angry at me but loathing the pain he cannot take away.

When you look at me you don’t see

how much courage it has taken me to get out of bed that day,

or how hard it is for me to make dinner for my family some nights,

or do the laundry,

and sneak in some errands before my body starts yelling for me

to stop.

You don’t see my freedom, or lack thereof…

the many times I’ve been disappointed,

the many times I’ve felt like I have let my family and friends down.

With that said, you also don’t see

how grateful I am,

to survive each day.

This is only a glance into a life with an Invisible Illness.

Some take life at face value,

those living with and

surviving

Chronic Pain

cannot.

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Thanks everyone for all the support and encouragement you have all given to me this past week… I can promise you that is had made a difference… and I apologize if I haven’t gotten back to all of you… It has been hard enough treading water the past few days… I will get back to all of you, it just might take a bit of time…

It was a week ago that I threw my lower back out, and unfortunately not much has changed… I am getting through one minute at a time, looking for distraction, giving into my pain, fighting through it, sitting with it, ignoring it, getting mad at it… doing whatever I can in the moment to get myself through….

There has been some downfall after my joints gave up… subsequent muscle spasms, over-compensating, referred pain.. all the nasty stuff that comes with it… so what started out as back and hip involvement has turned into a really heavy all-over body pain… sleep is hard to come by, food only serves a purpose – to add something to my belly other than the caustic meds that are swirling around in there… and the smile on my face hurts… meaning… it isn’t a joyful smile, more a grimace with the corners of my lips turned toward the sky… I am trying people, I am really trying…..

I have a Doctor’s appt. this coming Monday, and I am already dreading it…  I know it is coming… I will be told again that the ‘professionals’ think I am depressed… and I am NOT… Do they understand that there is a difference between feeling desperate when the pain rises, and having uncontrolled emotion that has an effect on everything you say and do in your daily life?  To me, there is a HUGE difference!

You know, the normal questions they ask to try to gauge how depressed you are….

Are you sleeping?

Have your eating habits changed?

Are you finding that enjoyable experiences in life are dulled or unappreciated?

Um… HELLO?  DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE LIVING WITH EXCRUCIATING PAIN DAY IN AND DAY OUT?

Yes, my sleeping patterns have changed, only because when I crawl into bed at night the searing hot pain won’t let me turn off…

Yes, my eating habits have changed, because when it is hard to breathe, and the pain immobilizes you, it tends to take the enjoyment away from making homemade chili, with fresh-baked buns, amd a lemon meringue pie for dessert…

Am I finding that enjoyment and pride I should be feeling when my son brings home a 100% on his science test, or do I laugh when I am watching that funny new sitcom?

Well obviously NOT… but it isn’t because I am depressed!!  It is because my pain is all-encompassing!

Dinner tastes like pain

Bread baking in the oven smells like pain

The smile on my son’s face is beautiful, but the ‘pain’ glasses I see everything through blurs things a little…

My heart can SOAR with pride, but my body has a different visceral reaction, and I can’t control that.

Holding hands with my love feels great in my heart.. it however hurts my skin…

And I would be over the edge JOYFUL spending an hour in my jetted tub with my wonderful lavender bath salts… if it was by CHOICE that I was in there… if I was able to lay back and read in the tub with a glass of wine, instead of holding the edge of the tub white-knuckled, and rocking back and forth because it hurts too much to sit on hard porcelain…

Depression is a serious illness, it shouldn’t be taken lightly, and I commend EVERYONE who admits to struggling with it, and getting proper medical help… God knows I have been there before… IF you are there right now, I urge you to let someone IN and get help… PLEASE… Depressions isn’t something to mess around with…

What I am feeling right now is very different….

The difference is.. If my pain lightened JUST a little at this VERY moment.. If  I could flip a switch and INSTANTLY come down from a 9/10 to a 7/10 I would be the happiest girl on the planet…. IN AN INSTANT!!

Depression doesn’t work that way… It takes weeks, months and years of multi-modal treatment to be able to feel happiness and joy when you are really suffering from depression…  The road can be long… It has been for me anyhow.

All I need is a 15 minute break from this nasty winded feeling that goes along with intense pain…

I have a beautiful family, amazingly supportive parents… a man who is in LOVE with ME… the real me…

I have a precocious and brilliant and compassionate young boy, and he is my world…

I have a creative mind, a big heart, and I love myself more than I have ever done in my life.. I accept ME.. and it has been a long process getting there… 36 years to be exact…  I accept the ME that lives in Chronic Pain each and every day… and I try daily to make the very most of the life I have been given.

I have a network of inspiring and beautiful friends in my life, and I ‘belong’…. THAT is the most wonderful feeling.

So no, I am not depressed… I can see all my blessings…

There is just a wall of pain up between me and all of that…

Pain is the issue at the moment… Depression is not.

I just have to convince ‘them’ of that.

I want TREATMENT for my PAIN… I am not interested in taking a medication I don’t need.

I AM FRUSTRATED… and I am ALLOWED TO BE…

Wouldn’t ANYONE feel that way after 168 days of unrelenting pain? 7 days in agony and counting…. (Okay so it has been more like YEARS than days.. but I mean this past ‘flare’)

I am STILL blessed… I’d just like to get back to embracing those blessings…

I have a bear hug bubbling up inside me… I just need to be well enough to give it away.

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I must say, it was bitter-sweet to say goodbye to 2010….

Some incredible things happened in the past year, but I was knocked down more than a few times as well, and for that I was relieved to end the year and start anew…

It was a perfect dichotomy I guess… You can’t have one without the other, or you can’t appreciate the good without the bad… or whatever cliché is used to make one feel better….

I had the intention of writing about all the wonderful things that transpired over the past year, and a wonderfully cheerful look at the year ahead… but since we rang in the New Year, I can honestly say I haven’t had the head space to be ‘cheerful’… I will be completely frank… So far 2011 has been rough… really rough…  It has sucked… and I know I am not the only one who is feeling this way….

I was having a hard time managing my health before we went on our holiday the beginning of December… it was SUCH a great trip, and a VERY needed break… but it has been a solid month of pain and frustration since we have been back.

Who am I kidding?  It has been 10 months of solid pain without much reprieve, and I am REALLY feeling beat up and worn down.

When I first was diagnosed with multiple illnesses that lead to a life of severe chronic pain, I felt like something was being overlooked.. Yes, I have a very severe case of Fibromyalgia, with secondary neuropathy… Yes, I have Endometriosis with adhesions that haven’t been removed… Yes, I have other varied illnesses, disorders, or defects that lead to the intense pain I feel everyday… but from the VERY beginning, I have asked to have other things addressed… namely, my back and hips…

It took 26 months (18 of which I was misdiagnosed, and another 10 months on a waiting list) to have a lower back CT scan and x-rays done… and I was so hopeful that they would find a reason for my crippling pain which has caused me to walk with a cane at times the past 4 years… it showed NOTHING… and I was devastated…

Through the last 3 years of intense treatment and therapy, I have asked over and over for my back issues to be addressed more aggressively… I have been in physio many times, and from that and the support I have had by a  wonderful Chiropractor, I knew that I had developed some MAJOR ligament problems, but I have never been given a solution, or at least a proper way of dealing with it….

“Jolene, you have Fibromyalgia, which makes you hyper sensitive to pain that might not  necessarily be have a valid SOURCE.” I have been told many times…

BUT THERE IS SOMETHING ELSE GOING ON!!!!!

If I as much as isolate and tighten my glutes, I can completely dislocate my SI joints, THAT is how unstable my lower back is… I cannot do Kegal Exercises for my pain because that is enough to dislocate my SI joints as well…THAT is not Fibromyalgia…

When I can look into a mirror, and SEE a big sack of swelling over my tail bone… there is a VERY real source… you do NOT get inflammation just because….THAT is NOT Fibromyalgia…

When I put my arms over my head and lean over to do a gentle side stretch my hip rolls and POPS out of its socket… THAT is NOT Fibromyalgia….

When I can’t put any weight on my left leg for days, and all I can do is either tuck myself into the fetal position, or rock back and forth to distract myself from the 10-inch knife that is going right through my spine, there is something WRONG….

When my back becomes so tight that I have no choice but to over-compensate and end up pulling all the muscles in my groin and butt… that is NOT just being sensitive to pain.. there is something STRUCTURALLY WRONG WITH ME!!!

If I go a month without this intense back pain I am feeling like the luckiest woman on earth….  Sometimes I go TWO months without it… but when I feel the crack or pop I know in that instant I am screwed… and it takes days and sometimes weeks to recover… it is the kind of pain that isn’t touched by ANY medication, and the only ‘cure’ is to get it to POP and CRACK back into place… THAT IS NOT FIBROMYALGIA….

As some of you know my Dad had spinal surgery before Christmas, and he has been in a great deal of pain since… It has been a hard recovery for him, and he still has a way to go… If we can somehow make it easier on him, we will….

As a way for him to stay connected with his online illness community, as well as for him to stay comfortable, and avoid frustration, I talked him into getting a laptop.  I would be lost without mine, AND his computer had a lot of issues, and I believed he had to wipe out his hard drive anyhow…  It wasn’t worth putting in the time, money or frustration into it anymore….

This past Tuesday he had asked for me and my honey to come over and help him disassemble his PC, and drive him to the store so he could deal with transferring data to his new laptop.. And we were more than happy to help. I made the mistake of leaning over to pick up his PC tower and both heard and felt the CRACK…

I knew I was in trouble…

We barely made it home….

And I have been stuck on the couch, writhing in pain ever since…..

Ice, heat, meds, stretching, massage, baths, back brace… nothing is helping….

What a fantastic way to start the New Year!!!

So yes, it has been a rough start…. my nerves are frazzled, and they are in hyperdrive… every minute or so I get a wave of PAINFUL “Goosebumps” that make me want to crawl out of my skin…. My stomach is churning… and my get up and go, got up and left….

As my honey gently massaged my back last night I let out some hot frustrated tears, while he silently supported me and hoped to somehow make it better… HE can’t see me like this… My Mom and Dad can’t either… it creates this helpless feeling in everyone, including me.. I don’t know how to make it better…

THIS IS NOT FIBROMYALGIA!!!!!!

One thing for sure… I am getting down to the bottom of this.. I am not being placated anymore… I will not let them prescribe me yet another medication in the hopes that my body will become LESS sensitive to pain… THAT is not the issue, and I know it.  I just need to be heard… I have enough pain to deal with every day, I don’t need this…

Angry?  Maybe…

Frustrated?  Absolutely…

Have I had it?  In a heartbeat…

Will I keep on keeping on?  There isn’t a doubt…

I am not letting the system fail me again… not this time…  I am not letting them convince me I am just depressed, or that I need to exercise, or that somehow Vitamin D will make me feel better…

It is time to get down to the bottom of this…

Thanks for listening to me rant my friends… That wonderfully hopeful post for 2011 is coming… just not today….

 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

HAPPY BIIIIRRRRTTHHHDDDAAAYYY

GRACEFUL AGONY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

CAN YOU BELIEVE GRACEFUL AGONY IS ONE YEAR OLD TODAY??

365 days ago, I made the commitment to myself, and to whomever wanted to take this journey with me that I would share my life openly, honestly, and completely, in hopes that I could somehow make my ‘Chronic’ life purposeful.

I nervously wrote my first post, and published it… and waited… I didn’t know if my words would be heard by ANYONE…

I wrote my second post… and my third… and the craziest thing happened!  PEOPLE FOUND MY BLOG!!  People were actually reading my words!!!

I very quickly realized I wasn’t the only one sitting ‘alone’ with my pain… There were so MANY people feeling the things I felt, experiencing the things I did, and crying the same frustrated tears I cried.

I FINALLY found a place where I was completely understood.  And it was the most overwhelming feeling I have ever had.  I cry at this moment as I look back upon this past year and reflect on how quickly my ‘heart’ changed, how my perception of my pain has gone through a metamorphosis,  and how the courage of others inspired me to find my own strength….

Shortly after starting this blog, I also started a facebook-based support group… and I don’t honestly know HOW, but people started to join… 15 members… 20 members… 30 members… People started to open up and share openly about their OWN lives with Chronic Illness and pain… And I made heart-to-heart connections with strangers from across the world who were suffering the same way I had been for years.  Who KNEW that these ‘strangers’ would end up being my dearest friends, and an integral part of my every day life. You all know who you are, and my heartfelt appreciation, and my utmost respect goes out to all of you… Thank you for making our family what it has become this past year… it is ALL because of you!!

Much “LIFE” happened in between writing posts, making friends, and sharing experiences this past year….

Some of us experienced great loss and began personal journey’s of grief…

Some of us found love…

Some of us lost it…

Some of us found hope,

and others needed the hope and strength that only OUR friendship could bring…

But through all of it, the one thing I know for sure is that we all got to ‘know’ ourselves in a way we hadn’t, all of us played a ‘role’ in our own as well as some one else’s healing.. and we all made a difference in the lives of the people we love.  WE BECAME SISTERS… united in something much stronger than illness and pain.

365 days ago I started writing as a way to reach out to others, and the most miraculous thing happened…. I ended up reaching out to myself…. I started a journey of my own healing, found strength I never knew I had, and found happiness in a way I never knew was possible while living in agony.

Because, in sharing my life with others, I found love, hope, forgiveness, patience, and tolerance for so many other people, and those people mirrored myself… By seeing my reflection in all of you, I found me….

It has been one crazy ride, hasn’t it?

290 posts

21,600+ hits

210 support group members

Invaluable lessons,

and forever friends….

THAT is how I measure this past year…..

Take a minute to reflect on the last year for YOU… and all the blessings, wonders, lessons, and love it has brought into your life… THAT my friends, is THE REASON…

Thank you so very much for following my journey this past year…

Thank you for reaching out and becoming a part of my life…

Thank you for your friendship,

Your support,

Your encouragement,

Your tears,

And your love.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL OF YOU!!!

THIS IS YOUR CELEBRATION!!!!!!!

I hope the year ahead brings peace, healing, hope, and above all, a lot more love and friendship across the web, and in our homes and hearts.

NOW…….

LET’S PARTY!!!!!!

 

DOES ANYONE WANT CAKE??

QUICK, MAKE A WISH AS I BLOW OUT THE CANDLES!!!

XOXOXOXOXO

 

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On September 3, 2010, the International Association for the Study of Pain met in Montreal, Quebec and held the very first International Pain Summit. Approximately 281 people attended the event from around the world to discuss the importance of pain relief as a HUMAN RIGHT and the need for guidelines Before beginning the and new strategies on how to handle this medical crisis. To be frank, as a whole people do NOT understand chronic pain as many of you know from personal experience. We live in a society in which pain control has not been a human right thus far. What we fight for everyday – compassionate drug use, respect, education, and advocacy are not only national issues within our own medical community, but they are WORLD issues that have hit epidemic proportions.

I have said many times here on Graceful Agony that we want our voices to be heard. We want to be treated with respect. We want to have a quality of life which we would not be able to find without pharmaceutical help. WE WANT OUR RIGHTS – to be treated fairly, with dignity and compassion.

Below you will find the short video presentation that the IASP were shown at the beginning of The International Pain Summit. I warn you now that although it isn’t what I would call “Graphic”, it was hard to watch from an emotional standpoint.

One thing is for sure, you can not dispute the fact that without the availability of opiate-based narcotics endless and unnecessary suffering will occur.

I wanted to share this video with all of my readers today and share a message….

The World has become quick to judge people who take certain forms of medication. Many of us have been labeled by our own families, our friends, and our employers.  Some of us have been judged by our Pharmacists and Doctors even….

Isn’t it time to stop all of that and start living by the Golden Rule?

Treat others the way you would want to be treated in that same position.

Don’t judge.

Promote understanding and Awareness.

Whether you suffer from pain or not, you can stand up for someone who does.

If we can somehow become a unified voice, maybe then people wouldn’t have to suffer.

 

psst… Have you voted today for the Canadian Blog Awards? This might be your very last chance to vote!  Please consider Graceful Agony in the Chronic Illness, Health, Best New, Best Overall, and Best Personal categories!

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I went to bed really angry with myself last night.  It’s clear that I am still far too hard on myself some days….

I conserved ALL my energy yesterday because I knew we had to head out to the mall after we picked up our little dude from school.  I was really proud of myself that I had enough foresight to pace properly throughout the entire day.  Some days I am pretty good at doing so… Others, not so much.  But yesterday I was on top of everything (Or so I thought).  I made sure I took adequate medication, I made sure that I rested throughout the day… I even mapped out the WHOLE mall inside my head, from one end to the other, I had a map of where I absolutely NEEDED to go, and a corresponding list of things I needed to get.  THIS time a trip to the mall was NOT going to knock me on my rear… end…

I knew I was hurting really bad yesterday, but I wasn’t going to let it stop me.  I was going to be in control… I was going to be productive… I was going to conquer my pain….

Pulling up to the mall, I knew EXACTLY where I wanted to park, and where we were headed…. There was a method to my madness, and my boys, knowing me the way they know me, didn’t let out a peep.  We parked where I wanted to park, got out, and began our shopping excursion…

We were looking for a suit for Little Dude… he is 9.  Have you ever tried to find a good quality suit on a budget for an adult let alone a 9-year-old?  Can you say NO SELECTION!  The poor kid had to try 4 of them on in the first store we went too… and he wasn’t all that happy about it.  The first suit was WAS too small, so I had to go fetch another… The second suit was still too small, so I had to fetch another… and so it went.  By the time the fourth suit hit the change room door  I was starting to get cranky, and I had sweat dripping off my nose… So did my son….

So off to the second store we went….

Now I was REALLY starting to hurt by this time, and it kind of caught me off guard.  I mean of course I knew that I was sitting at about an 8/10 on the pain scale BEFORE we headed out to the mall, but I wasn’t going to let THAT get in the way.  Have I also mentioned that I can be really pig-headed as well?  Sorry, it runs in the family. 😉  My legs were REALLY burning, and I was really confused.  Why all of a sudden are my most comfortable boots feeling like 6-inch stilettos?  Go figure.

I started to walk faster….

I needed to get to where we were going as fast as I could because I already felt like time was running out, and I had 11 other things on my list to still do…

We ran up to the children’s clothing section, and I started to grab suits off the rack in a frenzy… trying not to grunt and groan audibly as not to tip off my honey that I was already done in…

The first suit didn’t fit….

The second suit didn’t fit…

The 3rd pair of pants fit, but the jacket didn’t…

Okay, I am on to something, or so I thought.   Maybe I need to buy the pants and jacket separately, so I head off to the coordinates…

The 4th pair of pants that were the same size as the 3rd pair were and they were WAY TOO BIG!!

Oh lord, how am I going to get through this…. I started to feel a lump well up in my throat… I can’t cry in the Kids Department of Sears… I CAN’T CRY IN THE KIDS DEPARTMENT AT SEARS….

My honey, feeling my stress level spike, started looking through racks himself….

My son sat down pant-less in the change room, and waited as patiently as he could….

By the time we were on our way to finding SOMETHING that worked, the change room looked like a bomb hit it, and there was a trail of navy and black fabric out the door.

We ended up with 2 pairs of pants that fit, and 2 shirts that fit… No Jacket.  I felt like I had failed.

The boys were getting hungry, so we paid for our purchase, took the pants to the tailor so that they could be hemmed, and then we decided we were going to head to the food court… GREAT IDEA!  It would give me a chance to sit down and catch my breath!

But we never got there….

Now I am one to almost always push through just about anything when I can, because I very well know the feelings from living the opposite way.  I once spent over a year being almost entirely bed-ridden, and it was the hardest time I have ever gone through – to date.  I am usually the LAST one to admit when I am NOT okay… But my honey knows me so well, there isn’t much I can get by him.  A quarter of the way to the food court, as I was limping and now grunting with almost every step, I asked him to please slow down….

He said “That’s enough.  We are leaving.  We can do EVERYTHING on this list another day”.

I got mad.  REALLY MAD.  But not mad at him.  I was really angry with myself.  WHY couldn’t I suck it up just long enough to get my son a burger and go look at shoes?  Why can’t I just look like all the other busy Moms that were fluttering about the mall?  This was NOT the plan.  I was supposed to conquer my pain, conquer the MEGA-MALL, Conquer the line up at the Food Court, and STILL have enough energy to find a cute pair of kitten heels and have a wonderfully relaxing glass of wine with my honey when we all got home.  And instead, I am near tears, black circles around my eyes, limping back to the car as my boys were trying to hold me up.

Grrrrrr………

This is so unfair.

By the time we got home, I was doing everything I could to just hold on.  My heart was racing, and the pain was so bad I was praying out loud.  My little dude should have been proudly putting his new clothes away, and instead he was concerned about me… My honey stood by helpless, asking me what he could do to help… ANYTHING he said, just tell me how to not feel so helpless….I felt like a failure again.

Once I got my meds on-board, and my little dude off to bed, I sat down on the couch, and checked my email, chatted with an old friend, and went to bed.  All the while I was fuming, I was just so furious with my LACK of control.  I laid in bed in the dark and starting talking to myself, and realized that I NEVER had the control in the first place.  And being a failure is not a part of this equation.  I can only ever do my best.  Some days my best doesn’t look the way I want it to, but I need to accept that it is all I have got to give in this world.

Today, I have made the commitment to more gentle with myself.  Jolene, BE MAD AT YOUR PAIN – but don’t get mad at yourself.  They are not the same… That has been my mantra for the past few years, but I am human, and I make mistakes.

I thought that I had already learned that lesson,

I guess I still have a long way to go…

 

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THIS IS THE LAST ROUND EVERYONE!!

ROUND 2 – THE FINAL ROUND OF VOTING FOR THE CANADIAN

BLOG AWARDS FOR 2010 ARE NOW OPEN!!

AND I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP!!

YOU MAY VOTE ONCE PER DAY, EACH AND EVERY DAY UNTIL OCTOBER 26TH

FOR GRACEFUL AGONY

in EACH OF THE CATEGORIES I HAVE BEEN NOMINATED IN!!

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I NEED YOUR HELP!!

YES, YOU!!!!


Are you on Facebook??? Please ask all of your friends to vote!!

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Feel FREE to make a blog post and include all the info here (copy and paste it if you want!)

Do you have friends or family that have been touched by a chronic illness or chronic pain?

Take this time to tell them how much you care – and let them know that I am representing the whole ‘Chronic’ Community in this Competition!

Do you have an email or twitter account??  Please forward this post!!

Forward it as many times as you’d like , get your friends to repost it and so on and so on…  😉

If you don’t believe that your vote won’t make a difference, please think again!

This has been an amazing opportunity for me, and I am honored to be included with some amazing bloggers!


My wish when I started Graceful Agony was to spread the word, and increase awareness on Chronic Illness and Chronic Pain.  I wanted to be able to light another person’s path through a life that is often misunderstood.  I wanted to leave my footprint, make friendships, and be a part of an amazingly supportive online community…. and THAT is the biggest gift in what I do here.  I get all of those things and so much more every day.

The rest is icing on the cake.

PLEASE GET VOTING, AND JOIN THE CAMPAIGN!!

SPREAD THE WORD!!!

VOTE!!!!

PLEASE!!

Thank you to everyone that has given me such amazing support and encouragement through this process.  Graceful Agony wouldn’t be a part of the world-wide web if it wasn’t for you.

You keep me inspired,

keep me coming back,

and keep me loving what I do…

In spite of Pain.

XOXOXOXO

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