Last week I was starting to feel better…. I was at the tail end of a nasty flare, and thought the worst has passed…. I let out a BIG sigh on Sunday morning, set my mind to IGNORING my pain and enjoying Mother’s Day… (Well what ELSE do you DO on Mother’s Day?!?)…. I was strolling through my day, minding my own business… Coming home from eating a delectable breakfast with the 2 cutest boys on the planet….. WHEN…..
Crap…. I blew one of my SI joints out-of-place…. grrrr…….
I don’t know how many of you have experienced that type of pain, but the only thing I can honestly compare it to is having back labor (and I know, I had back labor with my son, and it isn’t pretty!). The only difference is that back labor is for a set period of time, and results in meeting the love of your life… SI joint pain lasts for days and sometimes weeks, and there is no “pay off” at the end 😉 The intense pain just about knocked me right off my feet, but I didn’t want to ruin the day for anyone else in my family, so I painted on a smile and tried to get through the day the best I could. My hips are really unstable as a result of my Fibro, Myofascial Pain, Endo, and laxity in all of my ligaments. So when my hips go out, my SI joints are the next in line to rebel….
Mother’s Day was a nice day all things considered, even thought I was in pain. Lucy, the World’s cutest puppy slept through the night and ACTUALLY let us sleep in until 9AM!! I was shocked! It was a great way to start the day!! Followed by a leisurely stroll to a restaurant for brunch, a trip to one of my favorite yarn stores, and dinner at my sister’s house – Who could ask for more on Mother’s Day?? If that wasn’t enough we topped it all off with a stop for ice cream on the way home… but OH MY BACK HURT… Still, I tried as best as I could to keep the smile plastered on my face…. As we crawled into bed that night my honey said “You are really hurting aren’t you?”…. um… yep…. Just hoping tomorrow will be a new day…
Monday morning I woke up in pain, got ready for my Doctor’s Appointment, and after the 25 minute car ride there I was ready to claw my eyes out! I thought maybe I just needed to walk for a bit and get my body warmed up. So after my appointment I thought I’d go shopping for a bit, grab myself a coffee and enjoy the morning… when….
I blew out my other SI joint on the other side….. Ahhhh…… 😦 My honey picked me up from the store on his lunch break and took me home…
I was SO excited about finding out that Canadian Family magazine had chosen my blog as one of their faves… but I was in so much pain I couldn’t see straight…. It was one of those “Honestly, I am jumping for joy on the inside” moments… My honey was so excited – and I was groaning on the couch… 😦
After ice, a hot bath, meds… more meds… and even MORE meds I went to bed – PRAYING that sometime in the night those damn joints would SLIP back in the way they just SLID right out….
Yesterday I spent the day in bed, other than the times I was in the bath, or swaying from side to side in the kitchen while grasping the countertop… I didn’t want the whole day to be a waste, so I caught up on my blog as best I could, and all of you made SUCH a difference in my day… I am SO overwhelmed at times with the amount of support I have here… I couldn’t be more humbled and honored….. but again the feeling of intense pain had to be somehow integrated with the feeling of friendship and love…. I was so appreciative on the inside – while groaning and wincing on the outside…
It was a rough night last night, and so far today I haven’t made it out of bed… I feel a little more stable, but I am scared to chance it and get moving this morning…. I have a lot of swelling in my lower back still, so I don’t know if those damned joints have moved again or not… It is hard to tell at the moment….
The last few days have been a roller coaster to say the least…. It is something that I STILL haven’t been able to master in this life with chronic pain… How to you feel really GOOD and really BAD at the same time? LOL! It is DRAINING!!
Do you know what I mean by that?
You try laughing and crying at the same time and see how conflicted you feel!! 😉
Ahhh…. The life of a Chronic Pain Survivor…. I am SURE a lot of you can completely relate!
One thing is for sure – when I stop to think about my life, pain aside… I can still SEE the blessings… and THAT is progress…. There used to be a time when all I could see was pain, and I don’t care to ever go back to that place again.
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