First, my apologies for being a bad blogger the past few days…. I have been thinking about all of you, but I just didn’t have a whole lot of energy the past few days… my get up and go, got up and went…. oh the joys of fatigue and pain!! NOT
My weekend consisted of laying in bed, watching the Olympics ( WHAT A FANTASTIC HOCKEY GAME!!), and watching CNN as the news from Chile trickled in… My parents were supposed to be leaving on a well deserved trip yesterday, but it doesn’t look like that will be happening… nothing like an 8.8 earthquake to stop you in your tracks. My heartfelt thoughts and prayers go out to the people of Concepcion, Santiago, Valparaiso, and all the other places that were impacted by this quake….. They say it was 700 to 800 times the strength of the earthquake in Haiti… So sad. I hope my parents get some answers from the powers that be soon…. You don’t realize how strong the ripple effect is when something like this happens until you see it first hand.
My nerve pain has progressively gotten worse over the last two weeks, and it is pretty much all I can handle at the moment. I am having a hard time with it… the searing pain in my hands and feet has spread up my legs, into my arms, and it burning my torso as well. If that isn’t enough my TMJ is alive and well, and my neck and shoulders are in a state of constant spasm… can you say headache?!? sigh…. One pain is triggering another I am afraid, and this girl is one hurting unit!
I have an appointment with my Doctor and pharmacist this morning, so hopefully they will be able to suggest a way through this… I truly don’t want that to mean MORE MEDS… but we shall see… I know that they have been gearing up to add another medication to my repertoire, but I have been REALLY resistant to that up until now… I have been up and down and up and down the medication scale (so to speak) for the last 4 years… I have been up to 12 meds, and then down to 2 meds, up to 7 meds, down to 3 meds.. and now I am back up to 6 meds… and that is more than what I can handle most days… I had to add in another medication this weekend for break-through pain – and it was all I could do to try to function my way through it… And THAT is SO frustrating… When you are having dinner at a nice restaurant, only to be hit with the drug freight train 3/4’s of the way through and have to lay down…. it just doesn’t seem that romantic!!?!? HA! HA! Seriously…
My honey is so wonderful and he is such a light in my life. He takes care of me on my bad days, and loves me JUST the way I am – but some days it is hard for me to see things the way he does… It isn’t easy to have your life interrupted all the time… my head says one thing, and my body says another….
So this is a small post before I get myself cleaned up and get myself to the Doctor’s office this morning… I will post more this afternoon… hopefully I will be on my way out of this flare soon, and my team will have some good suggestions for me!!
To all of those who have left me messages and comments in the past few days… I am so sorry that I haven’t gotten back to you!!! Please have a little patience with me… I will be replying to all of you when I get the chance!!
Happy Monday to all of you!! I hope you had a beautiful weekend, and you feel restored and relaxed going into the week!!
HUGS AND LOVE!!!