Aahhhh…… The house is quiet… For the first time in a week. My son is back at school, my honey has gone to work, there is NO construction going on in our building… ALL the laundry is done (thanks honey!) It is completely quiet… and it feels like it’s the first time I have taken a breath in days!
My pain level is still high today, but somehow it feels different when I am not having to deal with a whole bunch of other things. As EVERY mom out there knows (yes, I am talking to you), we tend to put ourselves LAST, and everything and everyone generally comes before us. I live for my family, and I love being a Mom, but some days simple things like having to make lunch, making sure homework gets done, and finding the missing mitten can put me right over the edge.
I sound crazy, don’t I? I assure you, I am not. Although some days I feel like I am on my way….
Even the most mundane tasks such as finding a lost mitten can really suck the life out of me on a bad pain day. When it’s time to make a sandwich for my son’s lunch, I have to THINK about how many steps it is to the kitchen, and then how long I will have to stand while buttering the bread, and how many steps to the front door to then put his lunch in his backpack….. Honestly, every single thing I do on a bad day is well thought out before-hand.
Going to the bathroom, where I sit to drink my coffee, Whether I will take a bath or shower that day, and how can I conserve enough energy so I can pick my child up from school, these thoughts all go through my head BEFORE even getting out of bed in the morning! It is quite exhausting when you don’t have the luxury of turning OFF and not having to think about each breathe and each step you take.
So when life gets busy, and there’s hundred of other things to think about other than just propelling myself through the day, it can easily get overwhelming.
Today as I run through the things-t0-do list that is CONSTANTLY playing over and over in my mind, I am putting BREATHE on the top of my list 😉
My wish for my Chronic readers today is that YOU will take some time out for yourself today.
And if you care about someone who suffers from an illness or chronic pain, please stop and realize how many things in life that can be easily taken for granted. Count your blessings in a different way today!