One of the things I have learned about living with a chronic illness, is that I need to live in day-to-day compartments. Let me explain. I cannot worry about what has happened in the past, for the road back to despair is a very short one. I don’t want to worry about tomorrow, because when I think of a life with endless pain, I can get overwhelmed and discouraged in a heart beat. I want to be present, and LIVING my life for the moment, for that is really the only place where I can comfortably be. I can’t change yesterday or the days, months and years preceeding it. I can’t ultimately be prepared for what is going to happen tomorrow, my life can drastically change from minute to minute let alone from day-to-day or year-to-year. I WANT to live in the here and now. It is something I have always struggled with, but my pain leaves me no choice really. If I want to live a life worth living, I have to live in TODAY….
And today is a new day!!
And I am grateful.
Today the sun is shining. Today it only took me an hour to get moving this morning. Today my honey has the day off of work, and we get to hang out as a family and make seafood bisque (YUMMY!).
Today I was told upon awaking that I am a beautiful person. Today I woke up to beautiful comments of support and friendship left on this page. Today my Mom and Dad love me.
Today I feel strong. Today I feel like I can REALLY get through this thing. Today I can rise above the pain.
Today I am so very grateful!!
I am grateful for cappuccino in bed, and comfy jammies. I am grateful for the breeze coming in from the window that feels refreshing and alive. I am grateful for my son’s smile. I am even grateful that my son had a nightmare last night, because it gave me some extra time to hold him close and chase his fears away. God knows he is getting SO big… and one day he won’t need me to hold him so tight. But just for today I am grateful that he still does…
And I am truly grateful for all of you.
You have all be so kind, and supportive, and inspiring. You have changed my purpose and you have added so much to my life in such a short time.
I am very grateful.
It is a new day….
And just for today, my life WILL BE DEFINED by the blessings in it…… YOU included.